Oh shit.

I was happily in la-la "I'm not graduating till next year cuz I'll be doing honours" land, until suddenly the last few days an avalanche of graduatesque fell on me. Over the weekend I was talking to Fang and Sne about it. Today i spoke to Ven who persuaded me to graduate this year. I checked my email and found my "Please Declare Your Major" form. Five minutes ago and munching on my ham and cheese sausage, I bumped into Anna who is facing the same issue.

Everyone who is applying for honours have the same worries. Will I or will I not get into honours? Will I be eligible for it? What if I do screw up?

I am banking 100% of my life on getting into honours. I am shifting my graduation ceremony to next year, I am booking a flight back to extend my visa and I am not applying for any jobs. So if I do screw up, I will have no job, 3 months in Australia to find one and missing out the chance to graduate with my friends. And that is a very foolish decision. I have exactly 50% chance of getting into honours. My grades are teetering on the minimum requirement. This is the first time in my life I am playing with chance, and for someone who books hotel rooms for Dec in Aug, this is the first time I have no idea what is going to happen next year.