Thursday, October 27, 2005

Blessed are...

Are you happy?

Seems like a simple question, but that has been something that's been on my mind lately. Am i happy? Not whether I'm happy with the things around me, or with who I am or even with what I've got.

But happy, in its pure unadultrated unconditional "no-circumstances-barred" joyful kind of way.

A complete acceptance of self, with its failings and unchangable realities. A comfortability in one's own skin, with or without identity, mask or roots. A comfortability in being alone, and yet know that you will never walk alone. To feel blessed giving more in all your relationships than taking. To serve in a way that asks for no return.

What i love so much about this exchange is how I learn something new about myself everyday. My weaknesses, my failings, my vulnerbility. I'm still confused as ever over what my purpose is. But everyday I feel something being revealed to me. But most importantly, I'm learning everyday, bit by bit, how other's approval of me is not the most important thing in the world. How I don't have to be liked by every single person. How to listen more than to talk. How to just be still and know that He is God.

3 more days to halloween, 5 more days to vancouver, 43 more days till I see bob.

Life is beautiful.

5 comments:

Ash said...

lol. to be semantical, I think that is what they call joy. It's like joy is a choice, happy is an emotion. shrug* hate semantics.

cherry said...

Joy is too deep to talk about..thats why im sticking with happiness...hee..

cherry said...

Joy is too deep to talk about..thats why im sticking with happiness...hee..

zanhan said...

hey ....howve u been? havent heard from u in a while.nice blog u have and interesting post. i had the same thoughts before and realised that you will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of and never live if you are always looking for the meaning of life.Someone told me, the only ones who will be really happy are those who have sought and found how to serve.

neways, take care.
-by the guy who wont go cologne shopping with you ever again-

cherry said...

Oh my gosh....miss you so much cologne boy!!! That was the deepest statements i have ever heard from ya...meant it in a really good way! all those times in the dining hall eating cereal...good times!