Are you happy?
Seems like a simple question, but that has been something that's been on my mind lately. Am i happy? Not whether I'm happy with the things around me, or with who I am or even with what I've got.
But happy, in its pure unadultrated unconditional "no-circumstances-barred" joyful kind of way.
A complete acceptance of self, with its failings and unchangable realities. A comfortability in one's own skin, with or without identity, mask or roots. A comfortability in being alone, and yet know that you will never walk alone. To feel blessed giving more in all your relationships than taking. To serve in a way that asks for no return.
What i love so much about this exchange is how I learn something new about myself everyday. My weaknesses, my failings, my vulnerbility. I'm still confused as ever over what my purpose is. But everyday I feel something being revealed to me. But most importantly, I'm learning everyday, bit by bit, how other's approval of me is not the most important thing in the world. How I don't have to be liked by every single person. How to listen more than to talk. How to just be still and know that He is God.
3 more days to halloween, 5 more days to vancouver, 43 more days till I see bob.
Life is beautiful.